Life itself seems to be a corruption of the Truth.  Any distortion of the Truth results in a perception which is really a misperception.  Any deformity of the Truth can be classified for the most part as either comedy or drama.  Something to make you laugh, or to disturb you.  Something good or evil.  Life and death.  Endless polarity, on and on.

To me, the idea of physical immortality (an ancient dream of humanity) seems a trick of the ego, a wild fantasy to keep us ensnared to some idea that keeps us limited to being “here” (instead of perhaps being “everywhere”?).  Perhaps that very idea of immortality stems from the notion that we think (read—believe) we are bigger, more important than we really are and therefore we can change the world, and that is why we keep coming back?  Why anyone would voluntarily leave Truth is beyond me, except to say that they believe that they can help others still stuck out there in the world who used to suffer like they themselves once did.  When one can let go of this kind of falsely self-imposed responsibility to save the whole universe, then peace of mind ensues.

The worst nightmare I can think of is to keep reincarnating in physical bodies (and I presume astral and causal bodies) from the cause of Compassion and feeling constantly beholden to the whole universe.  Maybe love itself is the Ultimate Cause?  When one can stop feeling so obliged to the Universe, then Peace ensues.  The Peace of Death, of Enlightenment.

Remember the quote in Jon Peniel’s book (The Lost Teachings of Atlantis).  “Only the bleeding heart returns.”  Zain said that if one decides upon reaching enlightenment not to return here (physical life), then that is their choice, but there is nothing wrong with moving on.

Love apparently keeps us coming back again and again.  Love makes us suffer voluntarily.  Love causes us to focus on one thing, instead of the whole thing.  This is corruption of truth, focusing on a part instead of the whole.  When we focus on the whole, we are automatically using our perception to encompass all things, instead of just some part or parts of the whole thing.  Love makes us ignore certain things in favor of others.

Perhaps the poets of old are right.  Love turns us into fools.

Ever notice that the word “author” appears in authority?

To me this means that the person considered to be the authority is in fact the author of the reality that controls the people who see him/her as in charge.  “In charge”…meaning charged up with energy, able to broadcast the light of God like a sun…a sun of god or son of god—take your pick.  He/she who shines the brightest with the borrowed light of others freely given to him resulting from  a poor choice made by the masses,…is a vampire—nothing more, nothing less.

All of this is the reason why the one who shines with their own light controls the whole world because he/she is a genuine Giver of Light that originates from Source/God/Divinity, this as opposed to being either the aforementioned Vampire Authority or the Ignorant Blood Donors.

Upon examination of all of this, it becomes evident that humility is needed to find God’s Light, lest one allow oneself to be considered a ruling authority figure that spends his time senselessly trying to attract the attention of ignorant masses and thereby stealing what little (if any) spark of a flame they possess.  Isn’t this problem at the heart of all despots, selfish political rulers, murderous mob bosses, untalented “celebrities”, etc.?  They spend all their time desperately trying to steal from the public, be it time, attention, power, approval sex or money.

Therefore if you are interested in ascending the heights up to God, be humble, especially if you are passing on your acquired knowledge and wisdom of God to students, beware of letting their silent or acknowledged consideration of you as an authority lead you into thinking that you are an end-all-be-all authority which can easily lead you to the ego-trick of becoming the selfish overlord Vampire just mentioned above.

Be humble about your acquired knowledge and wisdom of God and you shall receive it All utterly one fine day.  And you shall be as a Sun of God shining Divine Light.

It is just my opinion, but I think that both feeling guilt, as well as the need to apologize, is nothing less than to completely deny the wisdom of your role in the world, to deny your own dharma or duty as though it is a mistake, to deny that you behaved in the only way possible for you to do so at any particular time in one’s life.  To me, the process of feeling guilt and then apologizing just seem like a mistake, a slap in the face of your own Higher Self.

Those who serve their purpose and do what they are here to do have no need to apologize for anything, no matter what happens.  Even the act of just taking time to apologize for one’s true, intended actions is taking time away from your purpose in life.  Let your intentions be pure and selfless.  And then…Just do.  But do not apologize.  No guilt.  No shame.  No apologies.  Not now.  Not ever.

Such are the actions of a God-united being.

A thought occurred to me.  When a person orgasms, that person is experiencing the Bliss of pure Divine Love.  In the context of a relationship, when one partner has an orgasm, it is (ideally) a gift of love that is freely given to the other that is causing such happiness.  Of course when both are having orgasms, the love each one feels is being sent out to the other, magnifying it, instead of it just being a one sided affair.

To let down your guard and allow someone to make you come is to be receptive to the love of Divinity which can then be given, transmitted, offered to the other.

It occurred to me that one of the reasons (if not the main one) for the existence of the so-called “fickle” female orgasm may be that the woman is simply not allowing herself to feel that happy.  This nearly always stems from old beliefs and programming.  If she was repeatedly told at an early age that sex is a sin or just plain wrong, then likely she never will have an orgasm, or else when she does have one she may feel incredibly guilty about even experiencing it and therefore never really enjoy it, possibly suppressing it, denying it.  How sad…

Is there anything more beautiful among humans than to allow a totally selfless person with nothing more than your happiness on their mind to make you happy by allowing yourself to receive what Love they desire to offer you (especially if you are in dire need of it), irregardless of the form that love takes?

Is there anything more beautiful than two (or more) people giving and receiving the gift of Love to each other in any form?

If there is, I haven’t found it much less heard of it.  I don’t think it exists.

I find it “funny” (read—absurd) that the government put Charles Manson in prison for murder even though he never committed the act for which he has become infamous.  Research this if you “don’t believe it”—it was his circle of followers who did the gruesome deed.  And yet Manson is doing time for the crime.

The prosecutor’s reasoning (if one can call it that) is that Manson controlled the minds of his followers and is therefore just as responsible for the crime as those who actually wielded the murder weapons.  His reasoning was successful in that it resulted in a conviction of murder for a man who never committed murder.  His alleged control over the minds of the so-called Manson Family, the prosecutor reasoned, was equal to actually committing the crime itself.  And so Manson was found guilty.

Well…by this reasoning and with this precedent in hand, one could (if so inclined) to take any high ranking member of the government of the United States and send them to prison for exactly the same thing.  Are not members of the government busy controlling people every day?  Are they not busy telling people what to do and what not to do?  And do the people they represent do as they are told?  For the most part—Yes.  Does this not mean that politicians are no better than the scapegoat of the hippie generation?  Aren’t the politicians just as guilty of mind control?

For that matter, one could send the entire news media, including the whole gamut of television, radio, and print, and send them to prison for the rest of their lives for the exact same thing Manson was accused and convicted of doing—controlling minds and thereby making people do things they wouldn’t otherwise do.

Even the field of advertising and marketing falls into the same category.  What is advertising except the action of controlling someone to the point that they want something you (the advertiser) have, which causes people to take actions against their own will and purchase what you have?  Is this not a form of mind control?  Aren’t advertisers thereby just as guilty as Manson?

And for that matter, isn’t the prosecutor in the Manson case (Vincent Bugliosi) just as guilty as the man he was prosecuting?  Think about it.  How did he manage to get (the judge or jury) to convict a man who never picked up a weapon, much less commit a crime?  The answer?  By the very thing he accused Manson of—mind control.  The prosecutor used mind control to convince the court that Manson was guilty of mind control and thereby murder.  Well doesn’t that make the prosecutor … guilty of mind control, and thereby murder as well? ( Murder being defined in the sense that he usurped the Free Will of the court to think for itself, thereby murdering the court’s own ability to use its own reasoning.)

Indeed, these are dark times in which we live where so-called “Justice” is so perverted that the one who does the prosecuting of the allegedly guilty party thereby becomes just as guilty as they believe the accused to be.

Where is Justice?  Certainly not here on Earth.

Is this still “funny”?

I am not laughing.

Yogis, masters (or whatever else you call them) are by the definition of their very actions, Dream Killers.  Their lives are concerned with ending the oscillations of consciousness within themselves, maintaining evenness and passing along the knowledge of how to do this with the world, offering it for consumption to whomever will partake of it.  This ending of the oscillations, the ups and downs is the action of Killing the Dream.

Stated another way, masters are the ones who help others kill their illusions about absolutely everything in life.  What are illusions but dreams?  When the dream ends, one is awakened to the Infinite.  This ending is either eventual death or enlightenment, which is in fact a sort of “willed death” that occurs by attaining the all-consuming desire to unite with the Ultimate Deity.

Union with God is the Death of the Illusion playing out before you, projected before you.  It is the death of the Dream of Life, accompanied by an awakening to Infinite Consciousness.

Be a Dream Killer.

Wake up.

What is hope but a lie, an illusion we cling to when all promise of expectancy has left us?  Hope is perhaps the most irrational action that can be taken by an otherwise sane human being.  The foundation of hope is one of vacuity.  When all else fails, we can hope.  Why?  Because there is NOTHING else one can do.

It just seems sad.

Everything that happens between the extremes of Love and War is just the interaction of opposites manifesting in all its forms, in every conceivable situation at different points of “time” relative to each other’s perception.

We see what we expect to see, not what is really there.  All of our perceptions are programmed reactions to certain stimuli.  This reaction need not be an accurate perception of said stimuli.  A perception, whether real or imagined to be real, will result in the same triggering of the programmed reaction.  So it doesn’t matter if you think that all that is out there is real or not, created by you or God, blah, blah, blah.

It is nothing at all, but is also everything you project that you think it is.  It is what you think it is.  Your thoughts create.  It is all the manifestation of what you think it is.

The more you lose programmed reactions, the more accurately you see things, and experience life as the big entertaining show that it is.  You begin to see situations from both sides.  You lose the tendency towards condemning (usually called judgment) and become more tolerant of the shortcomings of the behavior of others, aware that everyone is doing the best they can according to their programming..

Every event in your life is inevitable; if it wasn’t, it wouldn’t happen.

Where is the line between what is acceptable and what isn’t?

Let’s examine two seemingly differing phenomenon—Kissing Booths and Prostitution.

The old carnival tradition of the Kissing Booth seems harmless enough.  For a relatively small amount of money, you can get a barely (if at all) intimate kiss on the lips.  No harm, no foul.  Everyone is happy, right?

Now consider prostitution, the oldest profession in the world.  For a relatively large amount of money, you can get a thoroughly intimate sexual encounter.  No harm, no foul…right?  Everyone is happy, right?

If only it were so…

Where is the arbitrary line we cross in our minds that says prostitution is wrong when it is based on the exact same principle of the kissing booth?  And for that matter, why do prostitutes refuse to kiss their clients?  The usual answer is that the act of kissing is far too intimate.  Too intimate!?!  A kiss is too intimate!?!  Can anyone answer me this question…Since when is a kiss more intimate than fucking?

It seems obvious to me that the real answer is related to love and matters of the heart.  There is no real love in the half-assed attempt at prostitution we call the kissing booth.  And neither is there real love in the non-kissing-but-Okay-to-fuck world of prostitution.  Some people call prostitution “selling love”.  Nonsense.  Not unless you want to say exactly the same about the kissing booth.

Love cannot be sold.  How can anyone sell that which is by nature not quantifiable and therefore unable to be placed in a Pitre dish and examined under a microscope (don’t they do that in sperm banks?)

Can we all just admit that those who engage in the sex-for-money business are engaged in exactly that?—Sex for money and no more?  Can we all just admit that??  Can we all admit that throughout human history there never has occurred a single case of a prostitute engaged in “selling love”?

Kissing booths use a blatantly false promise of sex to sell their product—which nothing more than a kiss.

Prostitutes use the promise of genuine sex to sell what?  Sex!

Call me crazy but I think that prostitutes are some of the most genuine people on the planet.  They have nothing to hide.  No false advertising here.

Neither the prostitute or the kissing booth occupant are selling love.

So what is all the fuss about?

If anything, we should imprison the girl in the kissing booth for titillating men and never putting out what she falsely promises.

Where, oh where is the glorious bronze statue to honor the women of the oldest profession, they who bravely advertise exactly what they offer…and deliver on that promise?

Where indeed?

Perhaps we will have to wait until that arbitrary line demarcating the boundary between the acceptable and unacceptable is erased.

Isn’t it funny that during the last 2000 years the best way to preserve great art and writing was to offer it up to the most greedy, corrupt and controlling entity of Western history—the Church!

Agents of control, it would seem, are needed in this world after all (much to my chagrin).

Or maybe not.  I really do feel that people who know how to treat others as themselves (love thy neighbor as thyself) do not need any system of outside control, for they are not in the habit of intentionally hurting others and therefore need no external methods of behavioral programming, much less any type of correctional facility to reprogram personal conduct.  If all peoples of the earth simply learned how to treat others on every level of interaction, this world could be a Utopia.

But I have yet to determine if such a kind of existence can truly exist on the physical plane.  Perhaps on the astral plane (according to Sri Yukteshwar, it does exist there), but almost certainly not the physical.  I really don’t know if it can truly be manifested on Earth.

But then again, the cycle of the ages predicts great changes happening every 13,000 years or so, and most prophets and prescient beings have predicted a manifestation of a heaven on Earth after this next cycle occurs (we are in the middle of the change-over right now according to every spiritual tradition)…so maybe Utopia can occur on the physical plane after all?

Only time will tell.